This is My December
So technically, I have not blogged in, like, 13 days or so. Not counting today, which has probably 4 blog posts in mind that have accumulated over the last few days. But really, I blame procrastination, exhaustion, sadness, depression, grief, and a broken heart for keeping me away from the space that has always allowed me to breathe.
These days I have come to the conclusion that solace may be found in places where a select few have been tapped to view it. Although I am not so much in a mood to start anew, I should be able to make use of this place especially since I have paid for that “.com”. 
Honestly? The reason why this December did not start off with a blog post is that this December has definitely started with headaches or something along those lines. You got a minute? I’ll tell you a bit of a sob story, but I promise you I will not drench these pages with tears, nor mess up your day… I would just like to share three main points why I have been away and just really not up to doing any blogging. Ready? Okay, let’s go!
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Done waiting to exhale
You know, most people think I am the most stiff person there is in the world. Most may think I am kefi-deprived, who insists on making hospital corner ends and neatly stacked books from A-Z. I’m not.
Initially people think that the combination of my monobrow, towering (as if!) height, huge build, and proverbial pout is a perfect recipe for a catty, snobbish, intimidating person who has a huge chance of having some stick up her *cough*. Yeah, well, maybe… and maybe not. Yeah, okay so I can be “maldita”. However, deprived from kefi, I am not. Suppressed, I am. That’s all.
Here, I would like to share a post that I made somewhere out there, to better explain myself: (more…)
Blogging is dead?
I have heard numerous reports that blogging is dead. On a normal basis, I think I would be inclined to agree. However, as of late, I think it is rather noticeable that I have been blogging less and less.
Sure, I have made plans to blog as often as I could – the way I used to. Remember? Every day, I would have blogged at least 2 to 3 times a day. Unfortunately, that is not exactly the case these days. I just cannot put my finger on whatever it is that is bugging me or stopping me from blogging.
I guess it may be because of lack of time for musing about things. Or stuff like that. A friend commented on why I do not blog about my friends at Parole School, and I have to wonder… Why have I stopped from blogging about the things that happened at work? Honestly? I cannot give you an answer.
Compared to camp minus prison, I think the people here are not exactly as close as I have been with the ones that camp. I don’t know. Maybe it’s just ‘coz I am new here or something. But there are indeed a lot of aspects in every situation, so I have no idea what to talk about… either that or I have this strange desire to just keep everything private about Parole School. Although I know a lot of people may be curious as to what I have been doing here. 
Anyway, I may fill up those “facts” or tidbits later on. Hopefully I will be able to have time to update soon.
Updating thoughts
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It used to be that I could blog about anything and anything in the world. Now, I have a hard time finding the words to type into these blank pages because as much as I want to unload all my feelings, I HAVE to keep them in.
Miss Feyoh says I write much better if it is all from the heart, yet I have to wonder why I even as I type these words, I feel guilty for typing it here. See, earlier during the year, I got into trouble because somebody did not understand my habit of hiding people under other names and dressing up situations into something that I feel I was the only one I could understand, especially when it came to talks about my home and whatever crazy situations I get into.
See, covering or masking situations works for me because somehow those who truly know me would be the only people who would fully understand the situations or stories that I have shared. I know now that sometimes that does not work, huh. Unfortunately, it has already “tarnished” my writing in this blog, because the “attack” of that person has caused me to raise my walls to kingdom come. It has forced me to talk about things that happened but really in another approach or maybe just through blah blah blahs. I no longer feel as though I am totally sharing stuff with you.
Sunday Snippets #2: Dr. Seuss and I
Sorry for being AWOL last Sunday. Anyway, here is the second Sunday Snippets for you to enjoy. Here is a quote from Dr. Seuss’ “Oh, the Places You’ll Go.”, and at the bottom of it is the question you are to answer:
“You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself
any direction you choose.
You’re on your own.
And you know what you know.And YOU are the one who’ll decide where to go.”
“What do you think when you read the quote?”
Reminder: This is a free writing meme, so set your timers to 10-20 minutes and just write down all your thoughts about the topic, or not, and forget about the errors, the grammar, the spelling. Write fast, but do not rush. Ready? GO!
