Welcome to My Life

It has been quite a busy week for me.. Weeks actually. I would like to apologize to Teacher Julie for not being able to answer the previous questions. This time, I felt like I should answer right away before the next time I blink I’m already receiving the next question. The question for this week is:

What comes to your mind and what do you feel about the lyrics of the song “Welcome to My Life”?

I am a lyrics person. It has been a habit of mine to make sure I listen to the lyrics whenever I can, and in most cases, I tend to appreciate the song due to its lyrics and melody. When “Welcome to My Life” by Simple Plan first hit the airwaves – MTV – I immediately connected with it. It felt like somebody actually understood me. Ironic isn’t it? But somehow it made me say, “yeah! Welcome to my life!”

I may not exactly have a “hard childhood” as I had a decent roof above my head, food to eat, relatives who cared and loved me. But what chewed on me greatly was the fact that I grew up in a broken home. Some people thought “she is so lucky she has her grandmother” but people will NEVER understand how hard it was growing up without your folks. Sure, my mom visited me once, twice, or thrice a year, but the fact is, every time my mom came to visit, I just wish I could run and hide – get away. More so when my father finally tried to contact me.

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Musings of the unamused

What’s in the mind of the perennially confused?
A thousand thoughts racing on “what ifs” and “how tos”.
Frustrations and lament on torn dreams and a crushed heart
Of futures with possibilities of families apart

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There are so many things that one wishes to do.
And I have grasped the strings tied to cotton candy balloons.
Fought off winds, rain, sleet and snow.
How long I can hold on?
Nobody knows.

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Amazing what Dr. Seuss can do to my mind.
What do I wish to accomplish?
Nothing. Never mind…

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“You have brains in your head.
You have feet in your shoes.
You can steer yourself
any direction you choose.
You’re on your own.
And you know what you know.
And YOU are the one who’ll decide where to go.”
- Dr. Seuss (Oh, The Places You’ll Go!, (1990))

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The truth is, I never want to stop writing. I doubt if I ever will. I love it.. But (Well) I guess I’m not that good at all (anymore).. But baby that’s just meeeeeeeeee… And I will love you.. baby… always.. And I’ll be there forever and day… Always… I’ll be there till the stars don’t shine… till the heavens burst and the words don’t rhyme.. And I know when I die, you’ll be on my mind… and I’ll love you.. Always… [sound familiar? part of Bon Jovi - Always lyrics]

LoL.. yeah, well… another day in paradise.

MaryMary – Shackles (Praise You)

One of my very favorite gospel songs is the one below. And in light of whatever is happening to me these days, I pretty much have this song dedicated today. Of all the days… TODAY.

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“Shackles (Praise You)”

Whoo!
It sure is hot out here
Ya know?
I don’t mind thought
Just glad to be free
Know what I’m saying, uh!

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
(What’cha wanna do?)
I just wanna praise you
(Yeah, yeah)
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
(Uh feel me?)
And I’m gonna praise you
(What’cha gon do?)
I’m gonna praise you

In the corners of mind
I just can’t seem to find a reason to believe
That I can break free
Cause you see I have been down for so long
Feel like the hope is gone
But as I lift my hands, I understand
That I should praise you through my circumstance

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
I just wanna praise you
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
And I’m gonna praise you
I’m gonna praise you

Everything that could go wrong
All went wrong at one time
So much pressure fell on me
I thought I was gon lose my mind
But I know you wanna see
If I will hold on through these trials
But I need you to lift this load
Cause I can’t take it anymore

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
I just wanna praise you
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
And I’m gonna praise you
I’m gonna praise you

Been through the fire and the rain
Bound in every kind of way
But God has broken every chain
So let me go right now

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
I just wanna praise you
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
And I’m gonna praise you
I’m gonna praise you
[repeat x3]

Take them off
What’cha gonna do, yeah

Take the shackles off my feet so I can dance
I just wanna praise you
I just wanna praise you
You broke the chains now I can lift my hands
And I’m gonna praise you
I’m gonna praise you