INSPIRED
Over the river and through the woods …To my grandmother’s house I will go… maybe tomorrow
Hey there, ho there, and a good how do you do to all of you.
My mind is currently going in circles so please feel free to close the window if you want.
Do you ever get those days when you just want to put your feet up and just smile at the world. Yes, I am odd like that. I smile when I do not know what I am smiling at – especially these days. There is a sense of contentment that comes quite crazily these days, yet I long for something else.
I think I may be longing for the sea… yes, a day at the beach would be lovely. But I do have to wonder…. the kids are a bit sick these days, but I reckon that is to be expected, what with the crazy electricity, crazy weather, crazy everything! 
But you know what? My week is just peachy. 
I feel invincible lately, and perhaps on a lighter note, I feel inspired.
See, I want to write all day long, and perhaps even take pictures here and there. Oh, I have created an account with Flickr, and its http://www.flickr.com/neverdainty.
Then there is this great frustration to write poetry and haikus. God, I wish I had the talent to do so. Plus, I have this great urge to draw again. Do you know how long it has been since I last drew anything? Ages. Okay, doodles only notebook margins not included, but you know, draw…
A few days ago, I was running high on approximately 4 cups of coffee while punching the keyboard, I took a few minutes of my time and drew away at my Page One notebook (no, not my Moleskine). It did not take me ten minutes really, but I came up with this:
First day of the second quarter wrap-up!
WARNING: LOTSA IMAGES!!!
Howdy!
Today is my second day of my second quarter of life!! Yipee!! AND why didn’t you drop by to greet me? Oh that’s okay, I understand. Busy people. I am busy, too!
Anyway, yesterday was obviously my first day of my second quarter, which means I have reached 25 years of life. That’s pretty young, if I may say so myself. Yet I think it has gone a bit farther than most would have hoped for, I believe. I shall post the tracks that I have made in the following days, if I have the chance, but for now, I would like to tell you how my birthday went from start to end.
At 12:00 a.m. July 27, 2009, I started my day by working. Hahahaha.. oh come on! It was really fun you know.. fun fun fun! I was writing some articles, chatting with some people, saying thanks who greeted, and stuff like that. I got a wonderful ecard from Pebbles, too! Thanks thanks thanks!
She, who decided to die
Yesterday, I was baffled when Michal sent me a text that Veronica is coming over today. See, I have this slight paranoia when people text me of people unexpectedly coming so I quickly texted her asking who Veronica is. I got no reply.
When I checked my mails later that day, I got my answer. As it turns out, I was to have my early birthday present from Michal when she sent me this book which I have been searching for since I was in college: Paulo Coelho’s “Veronika Decides to Die”. Michal said she was sending it via JRS Express, and was to arrive today. Can you imagine my elation upon hearing this piece of wonderful news? Teehee. I really could not contain my excitement, and I could not even help but do a little jig. I never expect anything during my birthdays because I almost always never get things anymore. Yay me!
Now I can finally fulfill my desire to read the book. Anybody else want to send me an interesting book?
Here is my newest possession (click on the pictures for a bigger view):
Michal Feyoh even left me a sweet note that I have found quite inspiring.
Again, thank you sooooooooooooo much ‘te Mich!! mwah mwah mwah!! My birth month just got better.
Creative release and coloring books
This afternoon, amidst all coding that I was encountering, I suddenly had the urge to get my hands on a coloring book and just color. Do you remember how it felt when you colored to your hearts content? The smell of crayons on paper, or maybe colored pens on the paper… Didn’t it smell like pure old fashioned fun? Even the act of drawing on paper and then filling in the spaces with just about any color you wanted gave you a sense of fullfillment or fun – whichever you prefer really.
Back when I was younger, I used to have loads of fun choosing which colors I was going to use, and to make sure that I did not stay out of the lines – or sometimes I added some other details on the page outside of the lines. My late uncle taught me how to color wonderfully. To me, back then, he was the bomb for coloring so … so… wonderfully. He taught me a trick or two – which I later learned is a common practice when coloring. But for me, I will always remember that it was he who taught me how to color.
Give Yourself a Confidence Boost
Once we believe in ourselves, we can risk curiosity, wonder, spontaneous delight, or any experience that reveals the human spirit. – E.E. Cummings
One of the things that made me smile today was the confidence a friend of mine showed while flaunting her bikini body on FaceBook. In more ways than one, she may very well be my twin not only because we are both plussies (plus sized ladies) but we share a lot of things in common as well. The only difference, perhaps, between the two of us is her apparent confidence that I have yet to develop quite fully.
For most people, I actually come across as a bit gutsy and a bit of a go-getter. But that confidence more or less manifests itself during times when things need to be done, or when nobody else wants to do it. In short, I get to be the spongey type of person who cleans up messes and deals with undesirables. For those things, sure, you can say I have a bit of confidence to do those things. On the otherhand, when it comes to representing myself for myself? Hah! That would just be the biggest challenge of all.
I know Ehn would bash my head if she read this… (IF she read this because she is actually very busy these days) but sometimes I still slip into a habit of thinking “…am I not pretty enough? Attractive enough? Sexy enough?” Sure, people have said it to my face countless of times, and in most instances, I crumble like a nicely baked choco crinkle. At least, these days, I think I may be making a bit of a progress.
