Longest month
this is gonna be quick.
This is all I have to say:
this is the longest month ive ever had in .. well.. months!
Not in the mood
I really dont feel like going to work today.
Work has lost its appeal.
I wish I could just stay at home…
I wish..
Sometimes I can just be such a baby. Easily downhearted..
Im just mumbling..
Do go on with your lives..
I am thankful though..
But the uglier part of me is envious, greedy, and all of the above..
I need to come clean..
I need to be free..
I hate being envious.. it is so NOT me.. but I feel like it..
The say if you feel it, you are it. but i dont want to BE it!!
Go on, I told you!!
You dont want to listen or read me rant..
Im just.. Ranting.
Good morning, Philippines!
Over n Out!
Who wants to be a Millionaire?
It is still 6:33 A.M. and here I am, typing away. Lately I have been as happy as pie. Why? This is my year. Well, the year of the Rat has not officialy started, but even as we speak, I am convinced that this is my year.
There have been an alternate of smiles and frowns since the start of the year, but generally, everything seems so nice. 
Ahhh.. I feel so light and happy, and smiley!
I feel like I’ve been offered to be a Millionaire. If you were in my position, wouldn’t you be in a smiley state? I just can’t seem to be all smiley smiley smiley.
No, I was not offered a million bucks. I don’t think anybody would do that. BUT, there are some instances when opportunities come rolling in. And I, being my own loving self, just cant help but grabbing hold of the opportunity. Can you blame me?
Anyway, who wants to be a millionaire? I do! I do! I do! Do you? I’ll tell you how.. But you have to ask nicely!! 
Mem’ries all alone in the MOONLIGHT
Kat wrote something that inspired me to write something. Hehe! To her, I give credit!
It has been YEARS since I started blogging. And I have been all over the Internet with numerous accounts to my name. As I thought long and hard as to which Engine I started with, I remembered that the first time I blogged was at Xanga, May 12th, 2004. AGES away.
I really tried to love Xanga, but somehow we never could see eye to eye. To me, Xanga was my first love.
And then came Tabulas. Tabulas served me well. But through all the hard times we had, the painful memories and youthful musings were too hard on my heart. I swore never to rant again. I told myself that there would be no more whining, and to close the chapter of a pained existence, I placed Tabulas on a glass case. A memory to be looked at, but not to relive.
So I moved on here, to Wordpress. Wordpress has been a good friend. A quiet confidant with comforting arms and silent assurance that everything would be alright. And true to Wordpress’ word, I blended in, and so far remained comfortable in our embrace. Although I have to be honest, there were numerous times when I would stray. Enticed by the promise of other Engine’s capabilities, themes, features, I just had to have a taste. But deep down, I knew, in the end. It would still be to Wordpress I would call HOME.
*charing!* wala ra pud!!!
I am Blessed!
Early this year, I received a lecture from my mother regarding my drive to push myself further and further. She said that it somewhat became an obsession with me, that I was trying too hard to prove myself to others as well as myself that I CAN DO IT!
Well, she is quite right. I do push myself. Sometimes I know that I get too hard on myself especially since i berate myself incessantly if I stumble, fall, or even an the sight of an obstacle. Being too hard on myself, coupled with the paranoia that I developed along the way, leaves me with a stressed life. And true enough, I must admit that sometimes I do tend to be blind of all the blessings I have received.
My mother’s lecture served as a wake-up call. It got straight through me that I just had to step back and reasses my life. Surprisingly, I made some moves I thought I would not do in a AGES. But there it went. I quit my second source of income because I suddenly realized that I had one foot inside my grave. An early death to an early starter.
But then, it happened. Everything started pouring in! I let myself go, and everything seemed all right. Somebody out there does care. And I really do not have to carry all the weight by myself.
Nowadays, I do feel lighter. My final days at the second income job are almost up and I really do not feel any stress at all. Well, I still am stressed, hehehe.. But at least it’s not THAT heavy anymore.
I am blessed.
Thank GOD for that!
