freeze
Sometimes I do not understand my self. Wait… make that to OFTEN I really do not understand myself.
I get so excited with something and devout my time, heart, and soul if i could to it… of course with regard to those around me..but still…
I have tried to lock up ms pessimistic in a box and threw her to the water… but like a shadow.. as soon as darkness loomed, she found me once again. *sigh*
See, I have these plans lately, and I do not understand why I am unable to do so. Somehow I feel.. handicapped, unable, etc.
I’ve tried a lot of things, even gone to great lengths just to chill out.. relax and unburden myself. It works sometimes..sometimes it doesnt. or maybe it is the skepticism that is preventing anything from happening. I just do not know..
Sometimes I think the world is flat..and then i start to ramble about everything and nothing… at some point, maybe rambling is good for my soul, too!
ah well..
And that is why i do not have anything now… maybe in an hour or so.
sophie and frankie
sometimes i forget to say how much i love you… but without any doubt, both of you are the very fuel i run on..
Sophia Belle & Gianfranco Emmanuel
I LOVE YOU, BOTH, SO MUCH!!!!
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cute cla sah?
deep sea thinking
ive done some thinking in the past.. and now, ive dug deeper…
what say u if i reconstructed this blog..? or created another one.. somehow.. im inspired to create another one.. but with a topic so far from this.. like apples and cement… but.. well.. okay, not THAT far.. say.. apples and radishes? hehehe bah.. but really.. i want to start a new blog. and i will..
this time.. i have a bigger goal.
but i wont tell u..! hahah its a secret.. 
just watch out for it on the side bar… —>>
m-bride
i think ive met an m-bride.
*yawn*
what are the signs of a burnout? i think i have jumped wayyyy past burnout and now.. the phoenix is rising! bwahahahha just kidding..!
well, well, well… this is something.. me? imagine me? not posting a little something for my avid readers in a week!! so totally not me..
dont get me wrong guys.. i LOVE to write. i really do.. i still do.. and i plan to.. but.. *sob* as i said.. bz bz..
i have yet to sleep.. so.. i guess writing has to take a backseat for now.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
