hair tearing
today is the second day of my battle with the riddles. *sigh* ive managed to get through batch 1. and now my problem is on the very first level of batch 2. anyway, ive decided to call off further riddling for the day. il just wait till tomorrow.. other matters are causing me to tear my hair out.~~
new news has spread in the prison camp that has caused chills to run up and down my spine. a huge boulder is set on my path and i fear for my life. i dont know why higher-ups are trying to push practically everybody off the boat… it’s not like they lack the moolah to fund us all… and they have the gall to ask us for pieces of advice as to how to keep their workers. WELL NO DUH?! they’re not exactly doing a good job by constantly threatening people plus the uber poor benefits. not to mention being constantly on a prowl.. like lions ready to pounce on fresh meat. i think they pretty much mean to destroy a person’s whole life by tarnishing papers when errors are committed (or whatever…). frankly speaking, im scared to death because i certainly do not know what is going to happen.
i guess by now, i should start looking for another job… but my question is, where can i find a decent job in this little city that pays as well as my current job..? im scared because if i am out of this job, how on earth am i supposed to take care of my family..? oh well.. jobstreet, here i come…
one big question: i dont get why hera is fond of finding errors for us when she is supposed to be one of us. she must be the only person who is on the highest level of the food chain who is fond of just putting is down.. dare i call her AntiCED?
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P.S. i think i have it… il stick it out until i see what is going to happen. i find no use running away from something that is more or less a ghost for now. once it materializes, then i would have my answer. i really love my job… and im not ready to give it up just yet.
riddle me this..
oi alaine!! i hetchu! huhuhu you got me hooked.. tsk tsk tsk.
alaine posted this URL on her website for weffriddles.com. as any curious little girl would do, i followed the yellow brick road and arrived at the curious little site. after reading all the blah blahs displayed, i decided to join in the journey… the quest to finish the whole hooblah of the website. and now, i must admit, im stuck. waaaaaahh and i can’t get it out of my head!!! the forums are really helpful.. hehehe
damn you, salazar (alaine)!! hehehe now im restless, and i keep thinking about it. the first few levels were easy enough to be a bit hard.. but now im stuck. wah.. why did i have to push the button?!?!?! ehr,.. i mean go to the website. hehe
i am sharing this information with you.. because i do thnk it is worth visiting. however, i warn you, proceed at your own risk. 
ENJOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
the quest to de-procrastinate
i am a procrastinator (but im not proud of it…)
for years, i have been battling this serious disease called procrastination. well, to others it may be just a fluke, but i consider is a disease.. a very very serious disease. and i have learned about its serverity just recently.
why i have decided to address this problem is because i have taken a beating for the past few months for my being a procrastinator. and i surely wish i did not have to go through all the trouble procrastination brings, but as always, regets come often too late. and now i pay the price.
there have been so many things that i should have done years/months/weeks ago, that i kept putting off. and now im caught in a web where i know i could have done something, but failed to. i honestly wish i could blame the problems on somebody else… but the thing is, i cant. *sigh* and now i wish i could break down and cry. (pathetic, am i not?)
and now, from my latest procrastination-induced frustration, i am hell bent on curing myself from my sickness. i plan to do it ASAP! but then, maybe later..? haha see! see! see! it is a curse on me.. *sob* maybe i could start with putting one foot in front of the other.. slowly but surely. this just might be the MAIN if not ONLY solution to my woes..and it just might prevent a whole LOT of ‘em coming.. right? 
i feel so much better now.. <The Procrastinator’s Code>
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today, i walked for the first time. hehe well.. i mean i woke up early in the morning to walk all the way up to the boulevard. to see the sun rise! yey! you see, lately ive been having pains on my legs and lower back that i could only assume was caused by the amount of time spent sitting down in front of the computer. of course there are those occasional walks to the loo, or walks for queries to Yoda, and then the walk to the mess hall. aside from that, NADA. no wonder my legs are starting to turn into mush…
sunrise was beautiful today… it made me expect that the day would go smoothly as though nothing could go wrong.. and maybe, i was wrong. the cool wind complemented the mood and made me feel good despite the ache i was starting to feel on my belly and legs. what made everything complete was dhirrac’s presence… and for that moment, i was relaxed.
on the way home, we stopped by the local pan de sal shop and bought fresh, hot bread. upon arriving home, dhirrac fixed me breakfast which consisted of fried eggs and pancit canton. (okay, so he’s no gourmet chef, but it’s the thought that counts) after breakfast, i played with sophie for a while before bringing her up to our room so that she would go back to sleep. she actually woke me up even before the alarm clock went off..so she was pretty much up and about since 5 a.m. once she fell asleep.. guess who went to sleep, too..? hehe
anyway, at least i had THAT moment of the day to look back to… because pretty much from the moment i woke up around 30 minutes later, well… let’s just say, that’s where the bad day began..
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i love the weather so much today… the wind is sooooooooo calming for me. im not a wind person.. im a fire person.. but days when the wind blows the hardest are the days i find myself relaxing.. i just dont know why. wind feeds the fire eh..? (currently singing: No Rain)
Boulevard Moments
there’s this place in our little city which i love… it’s known to tourists as the Rizal Boulevard, but to the locals, it’s just known simply as the Boulevard, or boule.. 
whenever i go to other islands, one thing i look forward to once we near Dumaguete is the sight of the boulevard with its bright orange lights that shout out to me “Welcome home!!” why it means so much to me is not because of the fact that it is one of the sights in our little city, it is more or less because i have so many memories there.
the boulevard has seen my smiles, tears, and has heard numerous rants, raves, and philosophies. to me, this is where i can relax.. there are times when at the end of the day, i wish i could just stop by the boulevard and just stare into the open sea, and have the wind clear my thoughts of troubles and pain.
the boulevard is where alaine and i used to spend hours just talking about anything and 
everything. it is also where dhirrac and i spend time to talk as well while we watch the sun set…and where dhirrac used to accompany me when i used to walk early in the morning when i was pregnant with sophie. it was also the place where i let out my frustrations when i got the news of the first and only failure in my academic life. and the place where i was told that it was probably best that i move out of our house in bagacay…(oops.. nobody was supposed to know that) and, more recently, it’s the place where i spend some time with my own family, watching my little girl practice walking and playing with her father.
yes, it is a memorable place. and as what Yoda just said when she saw the pictures, it is quite beautiful. we often take for granted the things around us and not notice how beautiful and memorable the places are. sometimes we dont see how lucky we actually are to have a small paradise such as the boulevard in our own little town.
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hehe pardon the drama… ive been wanting to go to the boulevard lately just to relax and drain my mind of all the problems. but i guess i cant right now.. maybe when i’m not too busy.
XOXO
Note: Pictures were taken here.
when rain and speed collide
what do you get when rain and speed collide? an accident.
while on my way to work this morning, i unfortunately got hit by an easyride (it’s what we call the mini 4WD used as a common transpo to towns). no, i did not die. hehe jk.. and no, fortunately, i was not hurt much. i am, however, expecting a bruise on my left leg as a result of the impact.
what happened was, while dhirrac was driving me to work on our motorcycle, the couple in front of us (who were also on a motorcycle) suddenly stopped without even moving to the side. as a result, dhirrac also had to hit the breaks otherwise we would have collided with them. just as we stopped i suddenly felt something hit me from the side… well, make that left leg (i was sitting sideways because im wearing a skirt).
at first i didnt feel any pain, it was only until we went on our way when i felt twinges of pain on my leg and knee. dhirrac was furious when i told him. apparently he didnt notice that i got hit because he was still pissed at the couple ahead of us. as it turned out, they stopped quite abruptly because that was probably the only thing they could do to prevent themselves from going straight into a hole in the road. dhirrac wanted to confront the driver of the easyride because despite the fact that the road was pretty big, and there was much room for the easyride to pass through, i still got hit. which means that he must have been going really fast that he did not notice the break lights on our motorcycle.
i stopped dhirrac from talking to the driver because no major harm was done. really. though i might get a bruise after this, but apart from that, there’s nothing wrong. things could have been worse… i guess things just happen when rain and speed collide. even though we were really careful driving at a safe pace, keeping away from puddles and mud, we still got into an accident because others were not mindful of the weather and conditions of the road. it had stopped raining by then. it was not even drizzling. but the road was still wet and others could have been more careful. but then again, not everybody plays safe these days eh..?
im just glad i i wasnt hurt… at most il be getting is a bruise. at least we didnt collide heavily to the extent that i would be thrown off the motorcycle or something like that.. i could think of a lot of things that could have happened, but thank God for miracles and we got out of it unscathed.
